I’ve been thinking…  I have wanted to write this for quite some time now, but couldn’t ever get it to come out right.  Actually, I’m still not sure I really like the way this is written, but here it is anyway…

How many times have you heard the phrase, “That’s so not like you” (or something similar)? My reaction, though left unsaid, tends to be something like this: Seriously? You are telling me that what I am doing is “not like” me?

Okay, okay. So maybe you really think you know what you’re talking about. But do you really? Has it ever occurred to you that the “me” you see might not be the real me at all? Perhaps you think something is “so not like” me simply because you want to believe that it’s not.

I know… now you’re thinking, “Yeah right, that’s so not true! There’s no way I would base who I think you are on what I want you to be!” But the truth is, you do. And I do the same to you — though I have been trying really hard to stop. After all, if it annoys me, chances are it annoys lots of other people too.

Your misconception of the real me isn’t just your fault, though. It’s also mine because I often only let you see what I want you to see. With the information I give you, you might not be able to get a very clear picture of who I really am. I mean, how can you paint an accurate portrait if you can only see bits and pieces of the person’s face?

On top of all that, there are times when I’m not even sure if a certain thing truly expresses who I am or just expresses how I want people to see me.  How do I fix this?  I imagine it’s something I’ll have to work on for the rest of my life…

About Aerykah

I'm a 29-year-old Christian homeschool graduate from Oklahoma, USA. I thoroughly enjoy reading, writing, and photography... among other things. ;)
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  1. sarah says:

    I’ve been struggling with the very same thing. I’ve always been so afraid of what people think of me that over the years I’ve become that misconception. It’s suffocating……

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